I am 35 years old and have been happily married for 13 years. I am infertile but I have been pregnant six times. Six pregnancies, achieved with medical intervention and without. Six miscarriages.

I am infertile due to Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS).

I have recurrent miscarriages due to a genetic blood clotting disorder. Prothrombin G20210A mutation to be exact. Also known as Factor II.

I don’t often quote the Dixie Chicks, but here we are:

It felt like a given
Something a woman’s born to do
A natural ambition
To see a reflection of me and you

And I’d feel so guilty
If that was a gift I couldn’t give
And could you be happy
If life wasn’t how we pictured it

It’s so hard when it doesn’t come easy
It’s so hard when it doesn’t come fast

-So Hard, The Dixie Chicks

Guest post policy: given the highly, highly personal tone and premise of my blog, guest posts don’t make sense at this time. Thanks for your interest though 🙂